yesterday was the ACT. it was nice knowing that some other girls in my class hadn't taken it yet and were in the same testing room as i was. we talked before we started and that woke me up which was really nice because i needed to wake up more! so we took that..
then last night was the fall concert. it went really well. all of us were afraid that it wasn't going to go well. but it was awesome...ok. so alto's struggled a little. well alto 1's did at least. we had trouble hitting a couple of our notes. but it's ok because i dont think that you could really tell. and three of us were frustrated because we were getting our notes earlier and then during the end of the song we STRUGGLED with it..
today we went to church and then i worked from 4 to close. it was really cold out today though. it was kind of raining /snowing. and today was trick-or-treat too. :)

dad asked me today if josh had gotten his birthday present from me yet. i told him not yet. i'm pretty much over it. it's sitting behind my couch. i think that it'll be there until we move and then i'll keep it for my other room.
the birthday present i get/make for people are always crapped on. gr.
oh and on november 1st i'll probably just end up showing everyone on this blog and on facebook what the gift is because it seems to me that everyone except josh cares...frustration...

ok i gotta go. i'm tired and i gotta get up early tomorrow.
comewhatmay...
teia

wow. i haven't really posted anything this week. not much has happened truthfully. it's been a "blah" week. i talked to erika from dad's work a few times. she's pretty awesome. then i don't know...school has been going on. this week was pretty much a "blah struggle". :)
tomorrow i take the ACT and then the choir concert is tomorrow night.
i'm kinda excited for the choir concert. our practice today went really well and that's always encouraging.
the ACT, however, will be interesting. i'm a little nervous right now. i'm taking it and that's a good thing. i just hate how some people were like grilling me about how i should have taken it last year and giving me crap about how they are planning to take it in a few months so they can study for those months leading up to it. ...um thanks. those comments really helped my self esteem.
anyway. that's about it on saturday...on sunday i work. i really wish i could make it to bible study at andrew b's because it's a really fun time. and sometimes i say way more than i would expect myself to say. oh well. that's the fun part about it though.

ok. time to finish my salad and study hardcore for this test tomorrow morning.
comewhatmay..
teia

last night was really fun.
ok well this whole weekend was a really good weekend.
friday night a bunch of us from work went to dinner together and then we went to a corn field maze thing.
it was really new and exciting. kelly was screaming and i was screaming and laughing. ;) so kelly was pulling me through the mazze thing and i tripped and fell twice. i was laughing so hard.

yesterday was pretty relaxing. we had the zoe auction/dinner event. it was really fun. i didn't think it was going to be awesome but i got some really good laughs out of it. at first it was kinda boring but then carly and jared showed up which was awesome. and i got over my selfish being mad at others. the house was AMAZING. josh sang the night away.
i talked to mandi and mr. pope for a while. then dad and ryan decided they were going to race. dad won. hm.
later in the night. i was kneeling down because i was tired of standing and i was talking to mandi and all of a sudden i hear this girl like screaming/yelping and she was falling over. onto me and she landed on me. i was laughing so hard ...well i was trying not too because it was funny but i didn't want to laugh in her face. she was drunk. :)
then josh, kellen, two girls, andy (the owner) and i listened to josh play some of his music and then some coldplay and skillet. it was really cool. very interesting conversations too.

on the way home we hit a deer. more like it side-swiped our van. we're all fine but the van it a little beat up on the passenger side. there's some dents. that deer had to have been big.

today we went to church and then hung out. i've been wasting my day on the computer. then i went to borresen's for bible study. it was on prayer this week. it was really cool to talk about. we got some really good insight.
yah hey vah hey. :) i remembered something.
then i came home and talked to erika. she had some awesome advice. we talked for over an hour. and it was a great time. emotional, inspiring...

now i'm sittin here
i have some things to look over and then sleep.
come what may...
teia

oh saturdays.
right now i've been trying to get aidan to go to the bathroom for over 20 minutes. he keeps talking about how he'll get a treat if he goes to the bathroom on the potty. he gets really distracted and i think he forgets he's not just sitting there. so here i am sitting on the bathroom stool doing things on my computer and he's sitting on the toilet talking about the ladybugs. how the ladybug is crawling on the floor and it will go in his pants because it's crawling on the floor. by this picture he realized he didn't have to tell me he was almost done for the 15th time.

besides that i've taken some more fall pictures today and edited more pictures.
yesterday was a really fun time. once again the workers at out and out saved up our tip money and went to dinner at ramano's for pizza and then headed over to meadowbrook corn field for a fun time in the corn field. kelly and i were walking together and ran a lot of the time. haha. we're dorks but it was so much fun. at least i thought so. we ran ran ran and then i fell....twice. yeah about that. my pants were pretty muddy because it had rained a little bit last night and then it was slippery and i was being pulled behind someone to run faster. halfway through the cornfield the power went out. it wasn't just "the power went out". it really did happen. the security guards were like ok what do we do now? so by the end they told us that we should take out our cellphone for the rest of the dark way.

so that was my night full of muddy running and hanging out with my friends from work.

ok i gotta go get aidan...it's been 30 minutes now..........and he's pretending the bathroom is a race track or something and the cars are racing past him....soundeffects and all. and background music.


comewhatmay...
teia

in honor of my "three months till my birthday as of today day" i was going to put up a new template background thing but i couldn't find one that i really liked so we'll just keep this one for a little while longer. or until i find one that is awesome. :)

today was a weird day. i wasn't feeling well. i felt like it was a friday. i got really upset during journalism and it just was not good.
tomorrow we're going to the corn maze with work. it's going to be fun. we'll take some pictures and have a blast. first we'll go out for pizza and then head out to meadowbrook. before we leave i'm buying hot chocolate or some sort of warm drink.

right now i'm pretty exhausted. i can't really fall asleep earlier than 1130. this past week has been horrible with trying to fall asleep and stay asleep so i've been exhausted.
hopefully this weekend i'll be able to get some sleep.

happy birthday alexis!!!!!! today she turned 17. yay.

ok time for me to rest up so that i can do some homework in the morning or something like that.

yay friday.

comewhatmay...
teia

work work work.
it's been a crazy week at work. i've been working with kelly a lot lately. she's cool. we really get along and have a lot in common. we worked 3 days together this week already and will be working together tomorrow night too.
i've worked 21 hours this week which is kinda nice except for the fact that i haven't talked to kristin since last sunday. it totally sucks. and i think we kinda figured that there would be times when we wouldn't have time to talk. but this sucks. i just love talking to her and hanging out with her. and right now I MISS it. on the way home from work tonight i was just thinking about how the last night she slept here she was laying here and she was like , "teia. i don't know when we're going to be able to see each other next." it really hasn't hit me. i'm hoping that soon i can go down there but i guess we'll see. nothing is really going to change our friendship though...we're far away but we still talk and have lots of good memories.

this friday we're going to a haunted corn maze with some people from work! awesome. :)
i'm pretty psyched plus i'll probably be so freaked out and hopefully i'll live through it without peeing my pants. oh man....

work work work. this week i'm working on monday and wednesday.
today i think i heard lose my soul on the radio at least 3 times. i love that song but every time i was in the car it was on. ok time for me to check over my homework...make sure i have all of it ready to go for tomorrow.

comewhatmay...
teia

fall is here.

this tree i took a picture of is SO awesome. this part is obviously bright red and orange-ish. the other half is pale yellow and the the bottom part of the tree is still green. there are so many colors in this tree. i love it.

it's been just about a year since we moved here to WB. actually i remember it was like the 14th and 15th. we had so much fun that weekend. now we're in a different time and with different friends. if some of us have those friends.

the weekends are not filled with singing turkey lurkey or calling out about all the peacocks in a room. they are now filled with work and coming home and doing some laundry. there are no more koolah nights as much as we all want them. movies and paradise drive nights are far in our minds. singing and going to the beach memories are drifting away like the waves from the sand.
they are not filled with dressing up and looking silly while standing on the dock or getting all dressed up for the "night games". they are not full of talks on the phones for hours.

we've grown up and we've grown apart.


i love fall. i could stare out the tree in the front of the house for hours. i wish i could just climb it and find out where the colors start to change from green to yellow to light orange to dark orange and the deep red. it's so pretty.

the only reason i don't really like fall is because it leads to winter and as much as sometimes i love the first snowfall and sitting on swings in dresses, barefoot in the snow. :) it's still a little cold for me. i just love being able to wear shorts and tank tops. instead of being in sweatshirts and jeans and socks and gloves more like the layers and layers of clothes. although they are really comfy clothes sometimes it just does not cut it.

pretty soon it's time to bring out all the christmas music and go shopping for presents! yay. only like a month before that insaneness begins. :)
time for me to get some ice cream and read it up before sleep, church and work tomorrow.

comewhatmay...
teia

frustration.
ok see the thing is is i don't really like waiting for a ride after school. but i'll wait because what else am i going to do. i try to get involved. i've tried out for just about every play and musical our school has offered and i haven't made it. i did volleyball for 2 years. then i got a job. i liked volleyball but i wasn't good at it and i know it. i was fine. i knew the basics and got stuff down but i also screwed up a lot. i tried to push myself to do better and better. but that just ended up making me mad because i would screw up and get upset with myself even more for screwing it up again. i got a job and now it's a big hassle because we've moved and everything. it's like i have to keep changing jobs until we find somewhere to live for real. to stay.
i tried getting involved in chamber choir.
i didn't make it. i worked my butt off for 3 years and then come this year i worked my butt off for that month and a half so far. and then the people for chamber were announced and i didn't make it.
so you cannot tell me that i need to get "more involved" because i've tried and failed everytime. i've failed and i can't fail again. i just want to do something that i'm great at and something that makes everyone proud including myself.
so right now i'm just going to sit like a bump on a log waiting for my ride after school because i have to and that's what is going to happen for the rest of this year.

comewhatmay...
teia

last night we celebrated elise's birthday at the mineshaft. it was a really nice night...well inside it was. outside, however, was pouring raining and kinda cold. we had some good pizza and then headed up to the game room. isabel and i totally rock at colorama II. we got over 150 tickets just from that game. i don't really know how many we won from that game because we played it so many times. i ended up having a ton of tickets and there were all those small toy things that you would get but i didn't find any that i really liked so i just picked out some quick and then we came home.
i can't believe that elise is 7. yesterday was her golden birthday. sometimes she seems so much older because i guess i was like 10 when she was born but it seems like it was forever ago.

other than that this week has been kinda crazy. i've worked both monday and tonight for 5 hours after school. then i come home and do some wonderful homework and then the next day starts. thankfully this week has been going somewhat faster than last week. the bad thing about it going so fast though is that i have the ACT on the 25th so in like 2 weeks and also the end of the 1st quarter is next week! ahhh. crazy.
ok i really should get some sleep so i don't get sick!
comewhatmay...
teia

this past weekend was really crazy. friday was a fun school spirit day. we had a lot of fun at the pep rally. audra, erin and i sat next to each other and we just cheered along and laughed really hard. then friday night we had the powderpuff game and the bonfire. juniors and seniors beat the freshman and sophomores 34-0. yeah it was pretty awesome. then saturday morning i got up bright and early. cleaned up my room a bit and went to work. after work i went to the homecoming football game which we lost 30-20 against heritage christian. after that dad picked kellen and i off and dropped him off for dinner and we went to the concert. it was AWESOME. we were able to sit on the side in like the 4th row. when we walked in josh wilson was singing. i couldn't place where i'd heard his name before but then i recognized his 3 minute song because they play it on K-LOVE a lot. then "matthew east" came out on stage and got us warmed up and sang a couple of acoustic songs. we had an intermission where i bought 3 posters and some buttons. oh man...i'm a dork. :) then he came back on and he sang and showed some video clips. it was fun. then he made up a song about wisconsin. it made me laugh. after the concert i was the 2nd person to see him. the kid in front of me was really nice. he kept talking and talking about all the people he'd seen in concert and how excited he was to see mw. it was really nice. then he showed me some of his dance moves... haha.
so zoe got to meet him and i had him sign some posters. i felt really bad because my hands were freezing cold the whole night... anyway it was a really nice time. it was awesome to see him in concert again and for his something to say tour. awesome.
dad, jen and i drove home and then got ready for everyone to get back from the dance. we ended up having a fire in the fireplace and talking for a while before we got a movie started.
sunday morning was so tiring. we were at church at 730 to sing for choir. after that i came home and talked to kristin on the phone and slept the rest of the day. once i got back up again i did homework and fell back asleep.
so it was a crazy homecoming week and weekend. i'm kinda glad it will slow down for a while now but am going to miss the excitement of last week. ok i gotta get to sleep.
come what may...
teia

october...yay.
yesterday was pj/robe day. it totally felt like a thursday and i really had it in my head that's what day it was. and then i realized it was only wednesday. so i missed pushing daisies and was exhausted. today was superhero day. i didn't dress up like a superhero...i know. LAME. that's okay. my school spirit has shown throughout the week. :) tomorrow is school spirit day. im thinking of what i can wear. ill look ridiculous but that's totally fine with me.
after school is the powderpuff game and then it's the bonfire! yay! i'm excited.

then here's the thing. yesterday i get into the car and dad's like i have good news and bad news. im thinking oh crap what. he's like so i got matthew west meet and greet passes...and i finished with "for this saturday" and he nodded. so i had to make the decision whether or not to go to the homecoming dance or to the matthew west concert. i really struggled because i really enjoyed last year's dance. i had a fun time. this year is different. i'm sure i'd still have a great time but i think i might even have a better time at the matthew west concert. and it will be a new experience. yay. so i had to tell some people today that i wasn't going to the dance. i told erin and i thought that she might be mad at me but right now it seems like she isn't too mad. so that is what is going on.

i hope i don't make any wrong decisions. it really was a hard choice.
ok i have art to catch up on and then some sleep!!!

comewhatmay....
teia

homecoming week!
this week is going really well right now. on monday was twin day. some girls dressed as siamese twins. other people did a really great job too! erin and i were totally the sameee! even our jeans looked alike even though we didn't really plan that part. then today was generation day. teachers were teenagers, seniors were elderly, juniors were adults, sophomores-toddlers and freshmen were babies. us seniors were awesome! :) a ton of people got really into it. i got some really cute pictures of zoe today too!
tomorrow is pj/robe day, then there is superhero day and school spirit day.

ok im going to finish up some cookies for extra credit and then i gotta check over my homework. ill write some more in the coming days...

oh here's a picture of zoe from today!
come what may....
teia

cookies! michael came over today looking for isabel and she wasn't here. so he hung out for a while. we decided to make cookies...yum. we made some snickerdoodles. love them.

kellen has a bone bruise. he has crutches but right now at home he's just hopping along on one leg because i guess he doesn't feel like using them. whatever. the doctor said that he's out for at least 2-4 weeks. we are blessed. i know everyone especially dad and kellen are happy that it's only a bone bruise opposed to a broken leg because then he'd be out for basketball this season also. so those are the details as we know them right now.

i think what really bugs me about the whole kellen thing is that there are so many rumors going around. everyone always knows everyone else's business. sometimes it is an okay thing. other times is just annoying.
then i think about the hospital. right after the "project" fiasco happened on tuesday we told dad. he said that it would really hit home if something actually happened this week where a person had to go to the hospital and was hurt. i know this is totally different then what "happened" on tuesday but still. someone was hurt and now maybe people will be more careful about the project choices they choose.

i doubt that that whole last paragraph made any sense but i'm just putting it out there.
ok. i'm watching selah, elise, ethan and aidan right now.
otherwise, everything else here seems to be going alright...i guess we'll see about that in a few hours....

come what may...
teia

you know when there's a tv show that you watch and it has the voice-over at the beginning or end of the show? i think those are cool. they change your perspective on what happened in that 1/2 hour or hour. and they get the view from an outside source most of the time. on tuesday, i was writing and i re-read over what i had written and it sounded like i had written a voice-over. it was about being tested and what we will do about being tested. i would type it up and put it on here but i left it at school. so we'll see when i bring it home next time and maybe i'll put it up.

i'm glad it's saturday because this week was just not a very good one. so hopefully this weekend will be better although it's going to be tough because kellen got hurt last night at the football game. at first they thought it was broken but i guess it wasn't...i'm not really sure with specifics because i was somewhat sleeping on the couch when dad and kellen got home. when i woke up all i said was crap. dad asked me what was wrong and i told him that i had really wanted to finish watching the pursuit of happyness. i've tried watching it probably 3 or 4 times now and i keep getting interrupted or falling asleep. so maybe i'll watch it today or something. after saying crap i got up again and started washing dishes. this is the second middle of the night dish-washing i've done. i end up being wide awake at 1 in the morning so i wash dishes.
ok i am going to get some coffee and see what is going on for today besides work later in the day.

come what may...
teia

right now i am so exhausted. this morning i woke up at like 430 part of it might have been from the fact that i'd thought i'd slept in past my alarm clock and the other part was probably that zoe was crying.
on monday zoe turned 6 months old! we had a little birthday party for her. ethan and aidan wore birthday hats. aidan sang happy birthday in a video. :) i made brownies and some tacos for dinner. it was just a birthday fun night. but zoe was just having a hard night. she's been trucking through the past few days. i keep praying.

fall is finally here. the leaves on all the trees seem to be changing colors all at different times. some trees were already changing colors a few weeks ago and now some are just starting. i know...i'm pretty observant. here's a picture of aidan from our walk yesterday:
this was his "i really dont want my picture taken" face.
here's a picture i got of the sunshine and some leaves that had fallen:
and finally here's a picture of me and the new haircut! yay!
ok now it's getting late. and im getting tired once again. so it's time for some sleep, so i can get up in the morning and learn some wonderful things at the "el-dub" .
night.
come what may...
teia

today was an exciting day. erin and i went homecoming dress shopping. she found two dresses. i found 0. gr. oh well. i got some other real cute stuff. including a sweater dress that i might wear tomorrow and some amazing shoes. kristin's got me hooked on shoes!im pretty psyched.
and i got my hair cut! ahh. it's short. we'll seee what everyone else thinks...eeek. i'm a little scared. and i can't believe it's this short. oh well. anyway. i made this awesome comic book thing on my computer and it turned out really cool. what else. i dont know i've just had some really awesome days. ill post pics of my hair cut and some things i bought soon. i have to finish this project and then i have two more tonight! ah. oh and tonight we went to borresen's bible study. it was noah, kelsey, kellen and i. it was a really good time. we talked and got into the word. awesome time. i can't wait till next time.

ok. well im off.
come what may...
teia

happy birthday josh.
love you.

so it's late and im kinda tired.
i'm tired but i dont want to sleep. which really sucks because i know that tomorrow is going to be a pain in the butt day then.

we have a shortened day because it's ALREADY mid-quarter.

at work i was talking to some people telling them i was excited for our shortened day because it was short. :) and that it was already mid-quarter. dad told me that it meant i was 1/8 done with my senior year. these people at work were like really? you're only a senior? what?
i guess at work people think that i'm older than i actually am.
so yeah. that's kinda funny.

friday is josh's birthday. he'll be 22.
and it's dad's cousin's birthday too. lauren...i'm not sure how old she'll be ...19 i think.
anyway i was starting something for josh's birthday but i don tknow when i'll see him so it's pretty pointless as of right now.

homecoming is also coming up really fast. it will be on oct.4 !
i really have to find a dress. erin and i might look around this weekend if we really feel like it. ;) but i guess we'll have to see how we're feeling.


oh and lastly before i crash.
i love fruit. it's like all i'm eating these days. today i had 2 plums, a peach, and 2 kiwi. it's awesome. LOVE IT>

ok i really have to go sleep.
come what may...
teia

ironman, the dells and madison...oh my.

this weekend has been insane. on friday over 23 people called in "sick" for school. all these people that signed out of school attended the McCain-Palin speech. so far i've heard from many people that it was pretty awesome.

after school dad picked up me and isabel and we drove home to hang out with michael hennessey. he's this really awesome guy from TX who is trying to set the world record of ironman races. meaning in one year he will swim, bike and run in 23 races. the race altogether is a little over 140 miles long meaning it will be 3,220 miles...i think if i did the math right. :)
he hung out with us on friday night. we talked and then sang some...of course. hahaha for some reason i busted out "think of me" and he' slike i love that song. so we listened to it on the computer while michael made us cookies.

it was really confusing because michael maziarka was over and then so was michael hennessey. so we started calling m.m. = michie. haha. cause josh calls michael, michelle. so running michael made us some amazing chocolate chip cookies. then he's like hey teia. do you know this song that won best song of the year? i was like umm. i dont know maybe..whats it called. so he youtubed it and played it. i was like I LOVE THIS SONG! it was falling slowly from the movie once. he said that it's one of his favorite songs. ;) yay.

after talking and hanging out with him. yesterday morning we got up and said bye and good luck and that we'd meet him at the finish line.

then we all quickly packed up and drove to the dells where we stayed at the wilderness. it was ablast. we had access to a ton of waterparks- indoor and outdoor. yesterday it was pretty chilly so we stuck to the indoor ones. we went on this one ride called the hurricane. it was amazing. then i ended up falling asleep pretty early. i was so tired and for the rest of the night i was in and out of it. this morning we got up, ate, and got ready for more waterparks. we went to an indoor one but the water was kinda chilly so we decided to try an outdoor one today. it was a great idea. the breeze was somewhat cool but the water was really warm and the sun felt wonderful. they had a two-story lazy river that you had to take your tube on a lift thing to the upper level and then a slide down to the other level. it was awesome. there were also 4 body slides, where you would grab a mat and run to the top. at the top of the ride all the people would get in and race to the bottom, while laying on your stomach.
we all had a really nice time at the place and are exhausted now.
on our way back we detoured to madison to see the end of the ironman race. it was an awesome experience. we were able to see the end of the marathon and the race had been going for over 12 hours when we were leaving. i cant imagine being able to swim, bike and run for over that long amount of time. we met up with michael at the end of the race and took some pictures with him. he was tired- duh and we were really excited to see him.

then we came home.
the end.

sorry bout the abruptness of this post. im exhausted and my eyes hurt. time for sleep.
ill post up some pics soon.

come what may...
teia

saturday.
i love how i just put the day's at the top of my posts. there's not really a better way to start them i guess.

nice relaxing day for the most part. i worked from 10-3. then i went to the LW football game and the store.

kristin and i have been talking a lot the past couple days. which was really nice becuase it was so weird only talking to her for like 5 minutes the past weeks.
now we've finally caught up with everything. :)
it's so fun, having a friend, no matter where they are to just talk about random things. and sometimes we have that silence but it's like nice cause then we start talking about something else.

today i also saw meredith. she's SO cute. she was pretty content with kaitlin when i walked up so i talked to mrs. staub for a little bit.


if anyone has any good books for me to read let me know.
i really like melody carlson, gail levine, meg cabot. but i'm definitely open to new discoveries.

::most random post everrrrrr::


come what may...
teia

it's friday...once again.
this whole week of school and work has made me SO tired.
i keep coming home from school and wanting to take a nap on tuesday i did with zoe.
today i just was listening to music and was like ok nap time. and fell asleep for half an
hour.

tonight we have our "back to school" dance. erin and i are going and hanging out. later ill
go to her house and sleep there. tomorrow morning i work and on sunday i work. AND on
monday i work. what i really need is sleep. so hopefully tomorrow night i'll go to bed early
and sleep well.

ok i really gotta finish grabbing my stuff for erin's house!

come what may...
teia

so yesterday i started a post that was going to be about the first day and a half of school. after the first sentence or two i was called downstairs to watch zoe, i think. she fell asleep on me and next thing i new i kinda jumped up and and looked around. zoe was still sleeping on me but it was over an hour later. :) that pretty much explains the first day and a half of school. in other words or word, it was EXHAUSTING. i was so tired after the first day that zoe and i took a nap together and then i ended up going to sleep really early. yesterday i just was ready to go, go, go and after i got off the phone with kristin i crashed.

the first day and a half are done. i'm into my senior year. my classes are looking pretty interesting. i'm taking world lit. 1, pre-calc, psych, journalism, acapella, general business, economics, and art 1.
that's first semester though. i'm thinking right now that for my winterim i might take creative writing.
it's not like i have to worry about that right now though because it was only my first day and a half. i don't think i'm picking my winterim until october. basically i'll be getting my share of english classes. this girl and i figured out that i'll have 6 english credits when i graduate. :) wow.


it's so cool being able to go onto itunes right now and listen to josh's cd. i keep going onto itunes store and looking it up just to make sure i'm not dreaming. dad was explaining to grandpadu about the itunes store the other night.

"if someone looked up josh's cd in china or anywhere around the world they would listen to HIS music and see the picture that teia took for the album."

now that is weird to think about. i mean that's across the world! well, clearly that's across the world. and i know that people across the world could be reading this blog. i guess that i never really realized that in china or bosnia and herzegovnia people would be reading my blog or looking at pictures I took.

ok, i'm off to read avalon high.. a book about king arthur, well kind of.

come what may...
teia

last day of summer was today.

this morning i got up at 630 and looked around. i was mad to be awake at 630 in the morning and then i realized i was FREEZING cold. i didn't think i was going to be mad but i was mad because it was cold. so i got ready for the day and dad drove me to cedarburg. while sitting outside of starbuck's enjoying the morning i bought 3 cd's on itunes. the first was josh's cd. i'd been waiting to get it for the longest time, since i knew he was making one and then when i heard it had finally come out on itunes..that was it. :) the second cd i bought was bethany dillon: the beautiful sessions. it's an older one from her but it's bethany dillon so of course i'm going to buy it. ;)
the third cd was another bethany dillon. it was her newest one that came out in april. it's her music but the acoustic version.

then after that i ended up working from 930 to 5. well that's when i was signed in. anyway after that i came home and babysat zo.

that was my day. now i'm waiting up for omi and grandpadu because they're staying the night. dad just got the call and they should be here relatively soon. :)

starting school tomorrow at LW as a senior.

come what may...

teia

today the boys decided to play a game. so they got out this board game called bible speed and set it all up. the whole family was playing with them. :) what great imaginations. so they were playing the game and picking up the cards and "asking questions" which happened to be picking up a card and saying something about Jesus, God or heaven or something. i finally caught some of it.
here's some of the things ethan said:

"selah's (her card) says, 'you never go at earth, you have to go to heaven says God...from the wrong things you do...now it's uncle josh's turn. 'when you do this...' now it's daddy's turn."

a little later he said these ones:

"don't be so really sad for Jesus is in heaven, for He has the power and the sun...now it's daddy's turn. now it's uncle josh's turn. God is from heaven for you and you and you and you and you and you. now it's daddy's turn. now it's my turn aidan."

"He's got the power of mine. your sins have to go to heaven. God is from heaven for you and you and you. don't call n4 and 9."

i'm not sure about the "don't call n4 and 9" but i'm sure it has something to do with power rangers or something because they ended up turning the game into a power rangers thing after i caught these things.

ethan's got it. he's 5 and he's got it.

have faith like a child....

"ain't that the truth."

come what may...
teia

SUMMER RECAP....

it's the last tuesday of the summer. i have today and tomorrow left of summer break. :)

this summer has been pretty boring. sure, there were those days that i did nothing -which happened to be majority of the summer. then there were those special days that i did "special" things. i guess the first day was when we went to Omi and GrandpaDu's for the 50th wedding anniversary service. that was a fun day where we were able to see the ENTIRE family. entire meaning all 10 kids, all in-laws, and ALL the cousins.
after that we had Best of Broadway at the end of june. We had a great time and it was a good experience for the 2nd year in a row.

in july we had the fishing trip and our "night games" night with kristin and josh and minte.
it was the second time that we played night games, i know that tidbit of information is not too exciting but it was fun and i'm glad that we were able to do it again. the second time we even made up a game and basically got no sleep.

of course there was the Robbie Seay concert. i was just telling mom about the concert this past weekend and i remembered all the little stories that had made me laugh so hard that night. the guys were SO incredibly nice and i'm so grateful that they were able to come.

at out and out (where i work) we had a day where 12 of us went to six flags. we saved all of our tip money from the past year and went and had a great day...where we all got wet because it rained.

then 2 weeks later i was able to go to six flags with josh, kristin, michael, isabel, kellen, minte and me. we had such a blast.
that was about my summer. :)
this picture is from about 2 minutes ago. this is us doing what we do best. me holding a sleeping zoe and writing something....
come what may...
teia

these are some pictures from this summer of me. :) i love the first one of me and zoe. it's so cute.

days are winding.
winds are changing.
days are getting shorter.
winds are getting colder.
all clues for the school year that is starting in a week.
i was able to go to ethan's t-ball game and enjoy the "fall" weather and being outside.

these past couple of days i've had this "craving" to write. i don't know what to write about or how to start. all i know is that i have this itch that keeps begging me to write something. maybe i'll write something to kristin or just doodle.
i have a feeling that some of this goes with the fact that i haven't been talking to people as much as i used to.
last summer all i did was talk..i can't think of a day where i just sat around by myself which is really different from this summer. now it's the exact opposite.

things change. people change.

i'm going to try to relieve this "itch" for writing.
have a wonderful day...

come what may....
teia

its very late wednesday night. actually it's basically thursday which means that school starts in a week now. of course, we're all getting the question: are you getting excited to go back to school? and the answer most of the time seems to be no. i say no to people but then after i've always gone back on my answer in my head and re-evaluated. i try to figure out why i'm not excited. i think it's because in my head last year went by so fast for me that this year doesn't seem like it should be my last year. i mean i'm going to be a senior in a week. i guess i am now but i'll be in classes and everything. ;) i guess that doesn't change much but in a way it changes everything. oh well. basically i dont know if i'm excited to go back or not. i feel like i've missed out on way too much this summer to say i had a summer and now i'm going back to the way things were....again.

this summer was so different from last that it's crazy. i wish i could've done so much more and motivated myself to do more. but of course, i got into that funk and couldn't get out till a couple of weeks ago. now i'm back..

also, i'm pretty excited about school shopping because i feel like i need some new clothes. some cute ones. some dresses. haha i dont know really i just like shopping.
it's really grown on me.

time for me to read and relax before i get into the school ways again.

On Sunday night MInte and I started watching Moulin Rouge. She fell asleep and once I realized that it was 430 in the morning i decided it was time to stop the movie and go to sleep. Last night I finished the end of the movie. i've seen it once before and I love it. the story is amazing and shows love so perfectly. I can't really explain it. This is probably my favorite part of the whole movie.
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TOULOUSE: The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return!

[SATINE looks up, her back to CHRISTIAN. CHRISTIAN pauses. The AUDIENCE murmurs. WARNER looks at CHRISTIAN, but he doesn’t turn around. SATINE comes to a realisation. Slowly, she turns around.]

SATINE:

Never knew I could feel like this. . .

[With great pain, CHRISTIAN slowly starts to walk forward again out of the theatre. As SATINE sings, her voice grows stronger.]

SATINE:

. . .It’s like I’ve never seen the sky before.

Want to vanish. . .

[CHRISTIAN pauses, in inner turmoil.]

SATINE:

. . . inside your kiss,

Everyday I’m loving you more and more.

[SATINE walks forward across the stage, as CHRISTIAN slowly turns around.]

SATINE:

Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing,

Come back to me and forgive everything.

[SATINE gasps for breath, but recovers.]

[SATInE cues the orchestra to accompany SATINE.]

SATINE:

Seasons may change, winter to spring. . .

The DUKE is seething with rage.]

SATINE: I love you,

Till the end of time.

[A pause.]

CHRISTIAN:

Come what may. . .

the past week has been pretty crazy and now it's finally settling down.
last monday i was able to help out with germanfest some more. then on tuesday and wednesday i helped erin take some senior pictures and worked. we had a pretty fun time going to milwaukee and doing some on-site shooting downtown. then josh slept over on wednesday night because we were going to leave for six flags right in the morning. we had an awesome time at six flags. we were able to go on a lot of rides and just really enjoyed everyone's company. :)
minte, michael, isabel, josh, kellen, kristin and i all went. we made new jokes and laughed the whole day. later that night i was able to go home with kristin. we were so tired on thursday night. friday we woke up and had our whole day planned out. we went to water her babysitting family's plants, and ran a ton of errands. then we went shopping at the mall.
later we called hunter and went to see the dark knight with him. it was really fun and an amazing movie. hunter and i ended up talking for over an hour while kristin was on the phone. it was really fun we talked about school and what i want to do. after hunter left we talked to dan on the phone until 4 in the morning and then got up so we could get back home.
of course, traffic was horrific. going from chicago to west bend it took us about 3 and a half hours! it was crazy.

now i'm back home and it's kinda nice. i was able to actually do laundry and clean my room on monday. :) i was pretty happy about that.

it's august...ew. not too excited about that. oh well.

sun and the germans.

those couple of words explains my last few days. on wednesday i was able to help with the freshman orientation and then i went to work. the next day deirdre, isabel and i went to summerfest grounds to help with germanfest setup. it was a pretty good time. we stapled tablecloths onto tables for hours and then we sat in the hot hot sun. and of course there were many germans there. :) hans hans hans. it was a very popular name around the grounds. and once we got back to deirdre's we were so tired we just sat around for the rest of the night. we did the same thing yesterday at the grounds too. the guys were a little more cooperative and we were able to finish up the tables and then drive around on the golf cart waiting for the fest to open. it was a fun time with some pretty awesome people.
right now zoe and i are laying here in my bed even though it's a beautiful day outside. she's taking a nap. i figure that if i just lay here and cooperate....she might sleep a little while. :D

anyways, it was nice to get out of the house for a few days and be able to help some others out and hang out with some people my age and younger. :) and of course the tan is definitely a plus out of the whole situation.
now im just praying for kristin and her job, move and apartment situation. im praying that josh might come around so that we might have one time with isabel, michael, him and i this summer. just one last time.

oh well. dreams don't always come true.

maybe ill rest some more and read more of New Moon.
then monday is off to more germanfest work.

semper ubi sub ubi.
always wear underwear.

im out.

teia

today has been a pretty relaxing day like all summer days. :)

i talked to a bunch of people from school today online. it was really nice to kinda be able to catch up with some of them. tomorrow i have the chance to help out with freshman orientation. it will be a different experience and ill get to see a couple of people from school...and ill be in school for like 3 hours tomorrow! oh no. that means it's getting closer!

i was reminded by people today that there is less than a month of summer vacation left. it's so depressing in a way. there doesnt seem to be much of a summer to look back at. hopefully the next couple of weeks will be a blast.

kristin is going to OH this coming weekend to look at a potential teaching job for her. it's become a really hard choice for her to make in this time. she doesnt know if she wants to pick being close to friends and familiarity or if she should take the new job and be a part of that new expierence.

oh well. i guess thats her thing. :)
im looking forward to the next couple of days and the coming weeks.

change change change.
i dont think ill ever be used to it. but maybe one day it wont be so hard.

time to do something else.

zoe is 4 months old today! yay baby girl

these past two days have been good and bad just like any other days. we all have our ups and downs. secrets and long talks on the phone, excitement for one person and it seeming like the end of the world for the other. i know that it probably doesn't make sense but i think my head has been through a lot the past day.

today i found a website called This I Believe. it got me to thinking about what I believe...again. So i wrote thoughts down. it's a real rough copy but here's what I have.

This I Believe
'He looked at his three oldest children, me included, and said , ”What do you believe?”. It was moments after we found out about our youngest sister and her Trisomy 18 which could take her at any moment. What do I believe? It’s a question that everyone struggles with whether or not they having a dying sister. Three weeks later we were asking ourselves the same question when we found out that our baby brother was diagnosed with Trisomy 21 or Down’s Syndrome. How was I supposed to live with two babies that were not as healthy as all the others? How was I going to live through this?
As I wept about these little gifts of life that God gave our family, I struggled. He cannot do this to me, I thought. Then I remembered one of the songs we sang in choir, “Rejoice in heaven all ye who dwell there in. Rejoice on earth ye saints below, For Christ is coming, is coming soon. For Christ is coming soon.” When I remembered those words for those weeks I became comforted. I knew He was with me and that He was going to lead me through this time. I gave it all to God and knew that He was going to take care of me and the whole family. When people hear about my brother and sister, they feel sad and sympathize for me. I don’t want them to be sad because I know what I believe. I know what He can do.
This I believe.
I believe that God will stay with you through any trial that you go through. He’s there right next to you. He’s listening to your prayers and He answers them in His time with His will. He can do anything like make the flowers bloom and the birds sing. He can make a baby who is not supposed to be living live for 122 days and more.'

soooooo. that's about it for today. i might write more later.

teia

it's a beautiful monday afternoon. i got home from work at 5 and decided to come outside and sit right in the middle of the yard so that im under some shade and sun just at the same time. :) of course, once i get my chair set up in the middle of the yard i hear footsteps and a door closing and ethan dragged a chair up right next to mine. it's cute but it's just the right time right now to just want to be in peace and quiet. usually right when you find your "perfect" spot chaos comes up and just doesn't want you to be in that moment. oh well, sometimes we need that perfect moment only for a second just to get us back to where we need to be.

i took some pictures of me sitting right in the middle of the yard. :)
here they are.


the one at the top of the post is from today too. it just is of the "sky". well what the sky looks like right now when i look up ...it's filled with leaves and branches and specs of blue.

happy july 14th!

tomorrow's ethan's birthday!

teia

ok. so RSB are definitely the most amazing guys i've met in a really long time.
last night, yesterday was all amazing.
we got there and i walked around with zoe a lot. then robbie comes up to me and was like "hi how are you doing? who is this?" so we talked. i was pretty happy after that.
i talked to so many people. i feel kinda bad though because i was so floaty the whole night. i think there was too much going on in my head for me to think and process. therefore, i was so insanely floaty. wow. anyways.
then we actually got to meet robbie after the sound check. it was pretty amazing. he is a cool guy. we talked about zoe and her stuff. we talked about the family. then we met ryan he was the bassist. we didn't talk to him that much. but he seemed pretty neat, cool too. :)
isabel and i became the "food-getters" we got some jumbalaya ready for the guys to which taylor responded with the "jumbalaya dance". yes. there was a dance and "jumba, jumba, jumba-laya!" we cracked up. so that's basically how we met taylor. sitting next to taylor while we were eating was TANK. he was the drummer. i guess minte decided to ask TANK what his real name was and he responded with i dont have one. i keep writing TANK with capital letters because that's how he signed my awesome green shirt that mipps bought me. then there was tyler and he was the keyboardist. i think that's a word. keyboardist? keyboarder? whatever, he was on the keyboard. he was quiet but willing to try the strawberry rhubarb pie dad made. :P i'm not sure if he really liked it or not though..that's ok though. after the concert when i was going to get a picture with him i was stepping over a guitar case and my foot hit it. when i tried to stop it from falling he was like "it's ok..no worries, no worries." that was pretty cool i guess. i dont know. that's my tyler story. :)

let's see robbie stories. he was intrigued to hear about aunt tari and charis's time when they saw richard simmons. they were ecstatic to tell him. then he tried telling a story back about his friend david crowder and looked at them like 'you know....david crowder.' ...yeah. they were clueless. thankfully i was there and was like oh he's awesome. we listen to his music all the time. his hair is CRAZY! then he was able to finish the story because i understood about DC's hair. :) he loves the aunts. he thinks our family is crazy. he went up to dad and told him that he loved the family but we were crazy! he especially loved omi. he talked bout dad and jen and zoe on the green bay radio this morning and of course, martina called in. and he met another crazy family member. he mentioned omi on the radio.
i gave robbie the mug that erin and i made on the last day of school. one side said hope, coffee and melody and the other said oh baby, it's a new day. on the inside of the cup it had psalm 40:3..

i think robbie and the whole band thought this little concert was neat and cool. but what they might not understand is that this is becoming the talk of our lives. it's all we can think about. it's all we are going to think about for the next days, months and well we'll still talk about it years from now. they were such a blessing to our family. they helped us have a happy, fun, family, worshipful day. we all had a blast. i wish i could write exactly how i feel but i dont think i can. it's not possible just because there are no words for it.

thank you robbie.
thank you taylor.
thank you ryan.
thank you tyler.
thank you TANK.

you guys are amazing. thank you.

pictures from the concert...

i spend too much time on the computer.
most of it is looking at other people's blogs or looking at other pictures or my own pictures.
i'm such a dork. but i love it.

last week our best of broadway performances went REALLY well. the friday performance had some glitches because the sound board all of a sudden cut out the music during the middle of sap's song. he did a great job and finished but we had no music. during the first song the cd player wouldn't read the cd at all so we ended up ad-libbing for about 5 minutes. then we switched cd players after sap's song. and that one was still having problems so then we switched to dad's computer and it worked fine for the rest of the night. the audience was pretty mad. and so were some of the cast members so we messed up a couple of songs. our second performance went really well we didn't have any sound problems because we just played all the music off my computer because i already had all the songs in order. the last performance on sunday was most definitely our best one because we were all excited for it to be over i think. we all had a really fun time and of course there were those who annoyed us like none other but we still had a good time.
we had a cast party after the performance and had food and cleaned up at the academy.

it was really nice because omi and grandpadu were able to make it to our saturday performance and they enjoyed it.
afterwards omi and i were talking and then she looked at me and said," that man has something stuck to his butt." i was shocked and didn't know what she was talking about but when i looked over i found out that she was right. there was an older man standing near us and there was a white piece of paper stuck to his butt that said go wildcats with a megaphone. the sheet was one of the ones that we had used to reserve seats. so i told josh to come over and omi told him," go tell that man there's something stuck to his butt. im a lady and that would be kind of awkward if i told him." he saw the piece of paper and thought it was hilarious. he took a picture of it and said "story of my life!" omi and i both thought it was pretty funny.

tuesday morning kristin came up and we hung out all day. we went shopping at shoe carnival, maurices and bath and body works. then we went and got lunch and ate it the park by michael's house. after we dropped michael off, us girls drove to port washington to the the pier because we were going to meet josh there. we sat out for a little while and then walked back. i got some really amazing pictures with the water and us and reflections. we sat in kristin's car for a bit just talking and having fun. then when josh stood up to get out of the car isabel slammed a door and yelled FINE really loud. then she opened a door and slammed it again yelling again. she kept doing it while josh was walking back to his car. then kristin and i joined in. isabel quick ran out and got into josh's car. when kristin and i were pulling out we realized that we were making a scene and people really thought soemthing was wrong especially because isabel ran out of our car and into the other one. so we laughed about that one for awhile. when we got home we went out on the lake and the boys went fishing. the girls tried on the new clothes and then we ate dinner.

some of us were standing in the kitchen getting more food and drink and dad wanted to open the DR. WOW. so he started opening it and it exploded ALL over. it wasn't a little bit either. it was like a quarter of the bottle spraying ALL over the kitchen. kristin was standing there trying to hold her laughter in while we were all in shock or laughing.

after we cleaned everything up we headed outside for night games.we played capture the flag and then we decided to make up a game. we ended up playing outside until 2 in the morning. it was so beautiful out and there were millions of stars out.

the next morning we all got up at 5 to go fishing in door county. we were on the boat for just about 4 hours and had a really fun time. although we were dead tired we still enjoyed just being able to sit out there and relax. it started storming while we were out on the boat and we ended up catching 2 fish but only one to eat. captain paul thought it was probably 14lbs! after fishing we had some burgers on the way out and then kristin left and i worked.

today i went to children's with dad and jen and zoe for the heart meeting. i sat in the waiting room where the disney channel kept playing zach and cody episodes all afternoon.

other than that today was a pretty relaxing day.

i love it when kristin comes to town. we always cram as much as we can into the few hours we're together and it works...we all end up really tired after she leaves though. :)

tomorrow's the fourth and i get to see tracey's twins! i'm really excited we're also going to the cedarburg parade and then just going to hang out.

robbie seay's coming up! yay i'm really excited.

time for me to get some rest.

night.
teia

this week has been pretty awesome.
the robbie seay stuff is falling into place.
we're all getting ready for the concert. this weekend is best of broadway.
it's going to be really fun. i'm kind of nervous but not really. the others who are workin on "your fault" with me are pretty cool. and we practiced it with brittany after practice...and it was one of our best times. so hopefully tomorrow will be pretty solid. and the rest of the weekend.

so here are some cool things i've been shown over the past few days:
1) the zoe means life website. it's really neat- "the 1930's called....they want their word back."- and just shows how talented some people are.
www.zoemeanslifefor.us
2) youtube is pretty awesome. i mean videos on whatever, wherever, with whoever.
well, someone that was on a youtube video is someone that i admire VERY much. he's my best friend, my brother in Christ, my uncle: josh pope. he sang the star spangled banner, at the milwaukee 200 at the milwaukee mile . i'm really proud of him. he uses his talents and it's awesome when he does.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=tTCJUdrEFvM

so that is my ramblings for today. i'm ready to watch some gilmore girls and then head to sleep. i have a big day tomorrow. along with many others....
yay. excitement! :)

love
teia

i guess this past week has been somewhat exciting. but not really. not much has happened.

i mean we had isabel's birthday party. there was a bonfire and running around, breaking things, you know...the usual. then saturday isabel went off with her friends and i helped around the house and saw uncle dreas, jill and adler. adler was a little shy at first but then got used to all the kids running around and joined right in. a couple of times i looked over and thought it was aidan. he did the same run and jump onto the couch thing that aidan does all the time. after i saw them i worked. sunday we all went to church. minte was included. it was -i think- the first time she was able to come to isabel's birthday party. so her and isabel made it into a "birthday weekend" that was pretty exciting. plus we all love having minte here. :) we came home after church and cleaned up..watched a movie and jill and uncle dreas came back over with adler again. it ended up raining off and on all day long so there wasn't much to do. i worked again on sunday. then monday came and there was lots of sitting around and gilmore girl watching.
tech week for the best of broadway also started on monday. we went to practice and had a pretty nice time. erin and i talk talk talk. isabel and i talk talk talk...
and pretty much drive jen nuts.
sorry jen.
then joe and i talk talk talk. he's pretty funny and we get along which is a good thing considering i'm either dancing with him in each song or standing next to him. he's a cool kid and the oldest of a bunch of crazy siblings too. his mom is going to have a baby girl in just a few weeks now.
today michael showed up and walked in and said hi. and we're like michael...why are you here? haha. it was funny because michael knows that he can do that and we really don't mind all that much. they went on the canoe and i stayed with jen and the boys and zoe. then there was more best of broadway practice. it's coming together really nicely! i'm pretty excited for the shows. im a little worried about your fault in some places because i know how i'm supposed to act and look but it's getting there that's a little difficult.

you should try to come! it's going to be a blast.
it's friday night at 7pm, saturday night at 7 pm and sunday at 2pm.
it's in grafton at NSAA. there's pre-sale tickets or at the door.
or go to the website and the phone number is on there and some other "info"

im going to go show dad some pictures and then read or find something to do.


love .
teia

so tonight i got home from work...and was really tired. but i knew that i had to talk to kristin. it wasn't like an obligation or anything it was just like kristin and i hadn't talked since 3 am sunday morning....and i remember that conversation but i was a little tired. and she....well she was out of it. i missed her. also, her and i had been playing phone tag since like 830 last night. we both called each other at least twice.she called and left a message and then i ended up doing the same. back and forth.
we finally talked. it was for a couple of minutes but it was a good talk. i love talking to her. i loved hearing briefly about her weekend with josh and all the fun they had.
after we talked i went online and was just going to read up on a few things...i started pressing the stumbleupon button..over and over to see what i could find.
this one site came up that said, "what is love?" as the headline. i was thinking oh great. what is this? it ended up being this little blog entry thing..giving examples of situations and then saying nope...that's not love , that's infatuation. and on and on.
then it got to the couple of love situations. and i thought about the past weekend. and all the things that happened. i mean we had omi and grandpadu's 50th wedding anniversary.
they show love in everything. that's love.
i thought about dad and jen taking care of us...
that's love.
jen taking care of zoe the way that she does.
that's love.
kristin and josh...
that's love

-- i know that they might get mad at me..but..it's true. and it's cute.

i talked to kristin on the phone tonight. and i cried. she doesn't know it...but i did. i heard her talking about her weekend and it made me so happy. i can't imagine being in her position.
i can't really explain it better than that.

i was shown what love is and what it can be these past few days and months... and it takes my breath away.

it's an amazing thing and i don't think that there's a better word for it.

love
teia

exhausted.
that's just one word to explain how i feel after this weekend. but the other word or words is awesome.
i had such a great time. yes, i did end up staying up WAY too late and not getting enough sleep but it was worth it in a way.
saturday morning dad and i got up bright and early at 6 in the morning to go to the act which was about 1 hour away. we got there and everyone was really mad and standing in the parking lot. we had figured out that they decided to cancel the ACT..and not contact anyone. there were people come from HOURS away. and many parents were driving them. so i guess im taking the ACT the weekend of best of broadway. gross. i'll be extremely tired.
so saturday i hung out with ethan and aidan and attempted to help out around the house.
then we went and i met deirdre so she could give me a ride to the hotel and party.
we drove there and then hung out. keaton, brennick and temish and i walked over to culver's and had dinner and some custard.
the rest of the night we just hung out. minte decided to be hyper at about 130 in the morning it was insane. but i was laughing so hard and i got some good video out of it.
we didnt' go to bed until 3ish..then i slept for 20 minutes and kristin and josh called me up. :) i love those guys.
we talked for about half an hour about everything. actually most of it was really random but it was one of those nights when you could talk about random things and it felt totally normal. ok the truth is is we're just weird like that.
so we talked then i went to sleep and woke up at 730 got ready we left the hotel at like 930 and went to church to listen to grandpadu preach.
it was really nice.
later there was lots of practicing and running around but then we had the dinner and the service and everything turned out really nice.
i guess people liked the video even though it was being stupid and i was really mad about that.
it just annoyed me.
we danced and talked and it was really fun. now we're just all tired and ready to sleep for the next week.
ok well i should go straighten stuff up and finish getting ready for the day...

love
teia

for the past few hours i've been working on the video for omi and grandpadu's 50th wedding anniversary. it's a really neat (dude, the 1930's called....they want their word back)--sorry-- project to be working on. i have a bazillion pictures to put to different songs. and the first pictures start with omi being a baby. and grandpadu as a baby. i have pictures from their first date, a ton from the wedding and so on. i love looking through the pictures and just looking at the different styles and all.
well see i started downstairs at the table and was thinking to myself "ok good. we're getting kinda far. we have a song done...now a few more left!.just stay at the table and you'll get more done..and be able to have a nice relaxing day tomorrow." i didn't really listen to myself. shortly after i told myself this i looked at the clock and decided to make myself comfy and finish the video in the comfort of my bed. definitely not a good idea...i got situated with the blanket and the computer and everything. you know how when you get everything perfect the way you're sitting and all and then you realize you need something. well, of course, this is what happened. i got all ready to work on this project and then i realized "ooh i could really go for some of those fortune cookies leftover from lunch--that are sitting on the OTHER SIDE OF THE ROOM!" of course this is what happened and being my lazy self. i sat and decided to write a blog on how much i dislike when things like this happens. so that's my "disliking" comment of the day...a written one at least.

and right after i'm done typing this, i will take the perfect thing that i have set up and throw it aside just to fall for those delicious fortune telling cookies. YUM

unless of course isabel comes into the room and being a wonderful sister decides to give me a cookie. :) keeping the perfectness in it's place.

night.
love
teia

banana-raspberry smoothies are awesome.
tonight i had one at work.and i think i just might become addicted to them.
;)
also, i've been using adjectives that start with the letter a. like awesome, amazing. etc. etc.

im pretty tired right now. i've been contemplating starting a new book for the past 2 hours. yet i decided to stay online and write to different people.

i have the cutest picture of me and zoe. she'll be 12 weeks on saturday. the past couple of days have been a little rough. i was talking to one of my friends tonight and he asked me how she was doing. i told him ok. i mean she's still living..she's having a little bit of a hard time breathing sometimes.but she's still alive. he laughed and was like oh thats a good thing. i said into the phone, well babies who have trisomy 18 don't live this long. the average life is 8 days. so yes it's good. it's amazing. awesome.
look at what He has done. it's a miracle. i love her. she's so cute. what would we do without our zo?
here are two pics of the first time i saw zoe.

i remember thinking that i couldn't believe how tiny she was. little peanut. oh baby.











there's some pics of us at the hospital. oh look at her. she's so tiny.



here's the one from yesterday. i did a zoe photoshoot with my computer..while she was sleeping. besides a little shifting..she didn't seem to mind.
love,
t

my favorite thing about this summer is reading. i've always loved reading. but with my laptop i'm able to read whatever, whenever. and yes, i do end up spending too much time reading pointless things. but sometimes i read some really neat things and it just gets me excited.

my absolute most favorite thing about last summer was listening to music with josh and isabel and michael, with the windows rolled down and driving. i kept thinking about that today. it was a really nice day out and while jen and i were driving home from BOB practice i thought about how awesome the breeze felt. and how wonderful it felt to be feeling the warm summer air and singing music with my eyes closed. i love it.

i figured out how to play part of STAY. it's so funny because it's josh's song. and i just went up to the piano the other day and played 3 notes and was thought "wow that sounded a lot like something i know." so i kept playing from memory what i thought to come after the notes i played..finally it registered that i was playing his song. and i laughed because that's ridiculous. i mean i'm playing one of my best friend's/uncle's songs. just like it's some famous person's song. :)
well i guess he does look like a movie star...whatever...i love that kid to death.

anyways. i always end up having a really good time with joe and erin and brittany at best of broadway practice. we all get along. they're all pretty cool.

ok. that's bout it.
love
t

sometimes seeing family and friends for a short amount of time is really cool. other times it really puts a damper on the day or week. for example, when i see kristin when she comes up for a weekend or day or whatever..im excited to see her all the time. i love it. i love being able to see her and catch up. and just do random things with her. sometimes because we talk so much it makes me feel like she lives closer..and when i see pictures of her with us at her house i imagine her house being closer. i told her when i went to chicago to see her that when i walked into the apartment i felt like i'd been there 100 times before because i'd seen so many pictures, heard so many stories and watched videos too. it was really cool.
when kristin has to leave or if we have to leave her...i just get in a bad mood. not because i want to. it's just cause i end up having such a blast that i don't know what to do without her. and i get worried about when we'll see each other next.
in a way all of this seems really stupid but it's just something that's been running through my head.

tonight after best of broadway josh, erin and i were talking...him and i were talking really fast and making things up just because we could and we're insane like that. it was fun. it was so us from last summer. and i loved it. it made me a little sad but at the same time i felt so excited and flying high. haha.
i'll explain better. don't worry. you know when you have that best friend that you tell everything to. even if you talk to them 24/7 you still find things to tell them. and you gush things to that person because you can and whenever you talk it feels like you never talk. i know that some people know what im talking about. isabel and minte probably do. they talk all the time. the two of them are always hanging out or talking on the phone, or online. yet when they talk they still find things to talk about nonstop.
i guess sometimes josh is my friend that i do that too. :) ok not sometimes. he's like the friend that if i'm really mad at him i can still talk to him and just get over the fact i'm mad about some stupid thing.
that's how tonight was for me. i was able to tell him a ton of things in a record time of 15 minutes. and it was fun. we were both talking nonstop...

oh summer.

love,
t

overtired mode.

one reason i don't like summer.
staying up late because i can. and have nothing better to do.
it's great being able to hang out with friends and all and not have to worry about school and homework and responsiblity....for the most part.
but i hate staying up late by myself. it's boring. i waste my time reading stuff that i could read during daylight time. and i just don't feel like sleeping.
although i think one of the reasons i do talk myself into staying up late is that it's so quiet and peaceful right now. ...i mean it's 240 right now and im listening to the ceiling fan, some bugs outside and a creaky bed. peaceful.
another bad thing about staying up late is getting hungry at weird times of day.
and the fact that i sleep through the whole morning.

ok. well..tonight i was bored as usual..usually after like 1130 i get bored so i start looking at stumbleupon stuff and people's facebook pages or myspace pages or just websites. anyways. i was looking at something and then thought of the Chapman family. i decided to find out what the kids names were and just look around. well the oldest boy who just graduated. his name is caleb. he has a website with a 5 track album. it's so neat. i love it. i've been listening to it all night/morning long. he has a blog thing too. it's like congratulate caleb on graduating. most of it is like congrats. and then goes into this whole thing about how sorry they are for the loss. which is really nice of everyone. i want to write something on his blog but i know that to him ill be comment number 510...and i dont know if that's enough. like for me. i just kinda want to comment on it and really hope that he knows that im here for him. even if it is just to send him an email or note saying that he's loved by people he doesn't even know.. or just an email saying hi.
sometimes that's all people need to make their day.
i'd probably just want an email about someone else's day...just to get my mind off things...
i dont know. sometimes i think most of this stuff sounds better in my head..then i put it down on the computer and it sounds totally different.

so i should probably go to sleep. mostly cause my eyes are killing me and i dont want to sleep all morning again.

i can't believe it's june 10 already!!!

the later it gets the more random things i will type.
so...as ethan sings:
so long, farewell
have some fun goodnight,
the sun has gone to bed and so must i....

oh the things 4 year olds sing.

night.
love
teia...
or 'T' as more and more are typing. :P cause teia's not short enough already.

ok so the last post is actually from today.
i started it on sunday. and then it saved as a draft. and i didnt finish until today. which is fine i guess. i just feel like typing on my computer but i cant rightnow. i think it was at dad's work or something. oh well.
its pretty late so im going to get to bed. see what happens tomorrow. probably not much.
the girls will be here. and ill probably read all day long. because that's what my life consists of.
which is fine...im not really complaining. i just feel like socializing with michael and josh. cause they'repretty cool most of the time. and they're really funny together. we also had tons of fun last summer and i know we can never do it exactly the same again...but it'd be nice in a way. just because we all grew really close last summer and it'd be nice to do the same. i guess life goes on..
we make some friends and we lose some. right now we're all just going different ways. that's pretty sad because we are/were really really close.

i guess right now would be the perfect time to write taht screenplay of our lives..or novel. it could be a novel that we turn into a movie. now that'd be awesome. i even have the perfect way of ending it. ....

....if only i were a wonderful writer....i just know the way the movie or book would look like.

we're done with school! graduation was on friday. i felt like crying. this past year's senior class was so awesome. i talked with a lot of the people and they were just really good people. jenna was the valedictorian. her speech was pretty amazing. :)
it was a pretty good night.

then on saturday was kellen's birthday. we had a little party thing for him. josh,michael and minte and allie were invited. it was a fun night with jelly bracelets, bling bling tattoos, pop rocks and ring pops... we played some golf in the backyyard. then of course there was a bonfire to wrap the night up.

now we've finished our first week of summer break. it was pretty uneventful. best of broadway practices are pretty fun and minte basically lives here. :) we love it.

ive been reading a lot...so far ive finished 4 or 5 books. it's been pretty good. in the afternoons ive been hanging out with zoe..we go on the computer. then we eat...and sit and watch some scrubs.
my one handed typing skills have improved greatly over the past few days. especially the right hand. cause i hold zoe in my left. ;)
so that's been my week. hopefully ill be able to get on and put on some pics from kellen's birthday and mine and minte's midnight snack.

now it's time for some doctor appointments and then a party at timmy's house for the night.
ill write more later....
love