wishing all my family, friends and strangers Happy New Year's!
Hope you have a good one. Ta ta to 2009!
God Bless,
teia
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Saturday, December 19, 2009
lately i've been having dreams about grandpadu.
like multiple dreams. last night i know i had one about him. i just don't remember what it is right now.
a few nights ago i had a dream that we had gone to their old house. about half of their things were still at the old house and the other half was at the new. it was just how they lived- in the two houses. but they spent the majority of the time at their old house. it seemed like a cure for grandpadu. whenever he was at the new house he was sick and not doing well but while he was at the old house he seemed to be his old self.
when i woke up the next day i started to tell dad and jen about my dream and realized why i had had a dream like that. and dad confirmed it the same time i had my realization. the last time we had seen grandpadu "fine" and not sick like he is now was when they still lived in the old house. subconciously i must have been thinking about it but i hadn't put two and two together otherwise.
most of the time i have dreams and they don't make much sense but then there are other dreams where i can remember them clearly and it's like trying to get in my head and make me realize something.
for thanksgiving we went spent half of the time at with the pope's and the other half with omi and grandpadu. we ended up spending the night at omi and grandpadu's. i didn't really get to talk to grandpadu much but on friday before we all left to get our christmas tree i said bye to grandpadu. i said, "bye grandpadu. see you soon." he was staring off into the distance and said, "i hope so."
in the past few weeks this conversation has been playing over and over in my head. it has become something that i will always remember. i've struggled with deciding whether or not to write it. the exchange of these few sentences has changed meaning in the past few weeks also. at first it meant i'll see you soon here- on earth. but then the changing maybe has warped a bit into. i'll see you soon- in heaven. either way we both meant this conversation i hope both -on earth and in heaven- are true.
He hasn't taken either grandpadu or me (obviously) yet but when He does, "i'll see you soon."
like multiple dreams. last night i know i had one about him. i just don't remember what it is right now.
a few nights ago i had a dream that we had gone to their old house. about half of their things were still at the old house and the other half was at the new. it was just how they lived- in the two houses. but they spent the majority of the time at their old house. it seemed like a cure for grandpadu. whenever he was at the new house he was sick and not doing well but while he was at the old house he seemed to be his old self.
when i woke up the next day i started to tell dad and jen about my dream and realized why i had had a dream like that. and dad confirmed it the same time i had my realization. the last time we had seen grandpadu "fine" and not sick like he is now was when they still lived in the old house. subconciously i must have been thinking about it but i hadn't put two and two together otherwise.
most of the time i have dreams and they don't make much sense but then there are other dreams where i can remember them clearly and it's like trying to get in my head and make me realize something.
for thanksgiving we went spent half of the time at with the pope's and the other half with omi and grandpadu. we ended up spending the night at omi and grandpadu's. i didn't really get to talk to grandpadu much but on friday before we all left to get our christmas tree i said bye to grandpadu. i said, "bye grandpadu. see you soon." he was staring off into the distance and said, "i hope so."
in the past few weeks this conversation has been playing over and over in my head. it has become something that i will always remember. i've struggled with deciding whether or not to write it. the exchange of these few sentences has changed meaning in the past few weeks also. at first it meant i'll see you soon here- on earth. but then the changing maybe has warped a bit into. i'll see you soon- in heaven. either way we both meant this conversation i hope both -on earth and in heaven- are true.
He hasn't taken either grandpadu or me (obviously) yet but when He does, "i'll see you soon."
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