i try to explain to others the friendships i've had and how each person has brought an awesome and different perspective into my life.
every once in a while i think they get it and other times i think they are just nodding their head and smiling just to make me feel good.

each of my friends have shown me the endless measures of love, they have shown me what it means to love life and friends and...music.

my family has shown me that also but in such a different way.

if there is one thing my friends and i have in common it is the love of music. all different types of music. they've grown accustomed to my music and i, theirs. josh and kristin have shown me to love soundtracks featuring john williams, michael giacchino and hans zimmer, along with many others. erin has showed me how to appreciate many different songs on the radio i wouldn't have given a second glance.

if only they knew how much of an impact they have had on my life so far and will have in the future...

comewhat may...
teia

sometimes i wish missing wasn't even possible.

then there'd be no crying and hurt.
although on the other end it makes the reunion usually so much better.

basically right now i think missing others sucks. cause it ends up being lot of crap where you say you can't wait to hang out and how you miss the "good old times.."
majority of the time, i think i'm the only person actually missing the "good old times" and really needing to hang out with someone.

...i need a friend who can hang out all the time and talk...

if you know of someone who won't leave me ...let me know...cause i could really use my old friends right now even though they are all across the country and one isn't even a friend anymore. well i'm not sure. i hope we are. i just don't know.

ok i'm tired and a mess. i think this means sleep is needed.

comewhat may...
teia