the swirl. keeps getting bigger and bigger.

josh still hasn't talked to me much since before his stuff happened..which is fine as long as i get updates from jen. i just worry. i just hope and pray he's alright. And that he knows that i'm worrying about him and hoping and praying that he is alright. I don't know sometimes though.

jen and zoe went into a sleep study tonight at children's hospital. it was just supposed to monitor how she does while she sleeps..like if she has some type of apnea or if she has night terrors they can determine what to do from these studies. when they saw her "numbers" after hooking her up and having her FINALLY (after 4 hours of crying) fall asleep, they weren't good. this can cause damage on her heart if she isn't getting the oxygen she needs to the rest of her body! and her other numbers have a HUGE effect on her also.

the swirl keeps going.

besides that, i've been working just about every day. and right now i'm exhausted. it doesn't help that with what i know right now...these coming days are going to get harder with schedules and hospitals. oh...and as if it doesn't get ANY better. i also have a cold. WONDERFUL.

waiting some more...

come what may...
teia