tonight is just one of those nights that no matter how hard you try or how bad your eyes hurt..you just don't want to fall asleep. it's so frustrating. my eyes are hurting..a combination of crying and being open for 14+ hours.
within the past week i've been thinking a lot about my grandfathers. both of them. both are having health issues right now..and i dont know what to think about it. i saw grandpa at graduation and he was looking alright. and i saw grandpadu a few weeks ago.. and we were standing in our living room. i was showing him one of my drawing that i did at the beginning of this summer. he stared at it and said..wow that's incredible.
this past saturday i called mom to talk to her and she said that she was worried for grandma and grandpa as his health wasn't doing so great last week. on sunday our family made an emergency trip to green bay to see grandpadu and it was hard. he could barely lift his arms and was so in and out of it. it's incredible how just a few weeks can change drastically. 3.5 weeks ago grandpadu and i were standing in the living room talking about art. and this past sunday we were in a hospital room and he was asking about my graduation party..
i'm not sure how these next few days or weeks will turn out. God has a plan..i know it..but i'm just struggling with putting His plan before mine.

im going to try and listen to music and fall asleep...since it's now 340 and i cant fall asleep...stilL!

come what may.
teia