happy new year.
one year. it went by so quickly.
last new year's eve. isabel and i werethe only two healthy people in our house. we stayed up till midnight and made a huge sundae with marshmallows, bananas, sprinkles, chocolate syrup and blue frosting that said 2008.
this year i brought in 2009 with erin. finally we spent a new years together. haha. she came over and we talked in my room and took some crazy pictures with sunglasses that were left in my room and used my computer. it was awesome. we watched some youtube videos and decided to make ice cream sundaes and iced coffee. :)
it was very nice.

the past couple of days have been pretty crazy. saturday i found out that kristin wasn't coming into town for a couple of days.
sunday we cleaned out some of the stuff from the old house. i went to borresen's christmas party and then kristin told me that she could come for monday and tuesday. so i cleaned up for that. monday i got up and ready, piera and i went to coffee and target. i finished up kristin's present. i made her this pencil holder thing with music notes for school and a pillow and i gave her some lotion. :)
she got here and we hung out just talking. she was able to hold zoe for a long while without the baby fussing. then dad got home and we went out to dinner at charcoal grill. it was really funny because we walked in and then i hear "hey teia." and jeff from work was sitting at the table next to us with his family eating dinner. haha. after dinner we picked up kellen from basketball. then we walked down to starbucks. we found this awesome book called 5. you list your top 5 values and your 5 goals/dreams. and what you want to do in the next 5 years.
that hit me hard... what do i want to accomplish in 5 years? in 5 years i will be 22...almost 23. that's as old as josh is right now. and i think about what i've done in the past 5 years. it's scary. i want to accomplish so much but at the same time it's hard to even put together what my dreams are.
i can't make decisions. i'm so indecisive. i can't pick what book is my favorite or movie. i can't pick what movie i want to watch or what i want to do with my life. and that's where it starts to freak me out. "what are your 5 dreams/goals in the next 5 years?" what? what? i need to figure this out. i want to know so bad. i want to decide. do i want to travel somewhere else in the world for a couple days or weeks? i dont know. do i want to travel at all? i dont know. i have no idea. i think i'm stuck in this world of me being "young" and not having to decide anything.
i can't just "go with the flow" anymore. i have to grow up and start deciding things for my own self. i want to know what i'm going to do with the next 5 years and i want to find dreams that i want to come true.

the book was an eye opener. "list the people you are grateful for."
"there is no better time than now."

it was fun to work on it with kristin. then we woke up on tuesday morning and went to dave's for breakfast with people from my work. jeff was the person who had me for secret santa. :) he gave me a pink swiss army knife. haha. i laughed so hard. kristin thought the people i worked with were pretty funny ..then we went to starbucks againnn. :)
and had lunch with josh. we went to qdoba. which reminds me. my burrito is STILL in the fridge. i didn't eat ANY of it. i was not hungry...dork. we had a fun time at lunch.
we came back here. tried on some of my shoes and i kinda had a little breakdown..yeah not fun.
kristin left.
josh got some boxes for moving. we talked. i went into depth about what was going on...why i kinda just lost it. i hate telling people sometimes..but at the same time i want to tell someone. and i kinda just dumped it on him. we had a good talk though...
today i watched zoe and the boys most of the day. then erin stopped by. and now i'm here.
i talked to josh again. he said that he moved today! we're both really excited. he's excited for himself. and i'm excited for him. tomorrow i might help him unpack a little...and check out his new apartment. yay.
winding down on christmas break...and then time for MORE school. gross. ...

time to go.......

comewhatmay...
teia