its day 4 for zoe. she was born at 1:30 am on saturday morning. a little 5 lb. 3 oz. little girl.
she stopped breathing twice since she was born so until sunday morning they had a breathing tube in her to make sure that she did keep breathing. her heart was not as strong as the doctors predicted it to be and so they monitored that. also she was a little jaundice..so they put her under the lights and she's been under them since saturday afternoon i believe. the doctors did a lot of tests on her right after she was born to figure out if there was something causing her to stop breathing or look to find any other problems. the test results came back today...she was born with an extra chromosome and they tested like 200 cells and 150 out of the 200 cells had the extra chromosome. basically what that means is that she won't make it. 45% of the babies that are diagnosed with this syndrome don't make it past their first month. 70% of the babies don't make it past 6 months and another 70% dont make it past their 1st year. so right now....we're just praying to make it through. we know that once she goes she'll be in a better place but it's the little tiny girl that we've all wanted for the past however many years..and she's going to be with Jesus sooner than any of us thought it would happen. right now all isabel, kellen and i can think about it just holding her because even though she's 4 days old we still haven't held her yet. we dont know when that day is coming yet...
we just can't forget that He loves us. and it's all in His plan...
i dont have much else to say....maybe this is how He's using us...He'll say something to us and through us through this time in our lives.

love
teia