saturday.
i love how i just put the day's at the top of my posts. there's not really a better way to start them i guess.

nice relaxing day for the most part. i worked from 10-3. then i went to the LW football game and the store.

kristin and i have been talking a lot the past couple days. which was really nice becuase it was so weird only talking to her for like 5 minutes the past weeks.
now we've finally caught up with everything. :)
it's so fun, having a friend, no matter where they are to just talk about random things. and sometimes we have that silence but it's like nice cause then we start talking about something else.

today i also saw meredith. she's SO cute. she was pretty content with kaitlin when i walked up so i talked to mrs. staub for a little bit.


if anyone has any good books for me to read let me know.
i really like melody carlson, gail levine, meg cabot. but i'm definitely open to new discoveries.

::most random post everrrrrr::


come what may...
teia

it's friday...once again.
this whole week of school and work has made me SO tired.
i keep coming home from school and wanting to take a nap on tuesday i did with zoe.
today i just was listening to music and was like ok nap time. and fell asleep for half an
hour.

tonight we have our "back to school" dance. erin and i are going and hanging out. later ill
go to her house and sleep there. tomorrow morning i work and on sunday i work. AND on
monday i work. what i really need is sleep. so hopefully tomorrow night i'll go to bed early
and sleep well.

ok i really gotta finish grabbing my stuff for erin's house!

come what may...
teia

so yesterday i started a post that was going to be about the first day and a half of school. after the first sentence or two i was called downstairs to watch zoe, i think. she fell asleep on me and next thing i new i kinda jumped up and and looked around. zoe was still sleeping on me but it was over an hour later. :) that pretty much explains the first day and a half of school. in other words or word, it was EXHAUSTING. i was so tired after the first day that zoe and i took a nap together and then i ended up going to sleep really early. yesterday i just was ready to go, go, go and after i got off the phone with kristin i crashed.

the first day and a half are done. i'm into my senior year. my classes are looking pretty interesting. i'm taking world lit. 1, pre-calc, psych, journalism, acapella, general business, economics, and art 1.
that's first semester though. i'm thinking right now that for my winterim i might take creative writing.
it's not like i have to worry about that right now though because it was only my first day and a half. i don't think i'm picking my winterim until october. basically i'll be getting my share of english classes. this girl and i figured out that i'll have 6 english credits when i graduate. :) wow.


it's so cool being able to go onto itunes right now and listen to josh's cd. i keep going onto itunes store and looking it up just to make sure i'm not dreaming. dad was explaining to grandpadu about the itunes store the other night.

"if someone looked up josh's cd in china or anywhere around the world they would listen to HIS music and see the picture that teia took for the album."

now that is weird to think about. i mean that's across the world! well, clearly that's across the world. and i know that people across the world could be reading this blog. i guess that i never really realized that in china or bosnia and herzegovnia people would be reading my blog or looking at pictures I took.

ok, i'm off to read avalon high.. a book about king arthur, well kind of.

come what may...
teia

last day of summer was today.

this morning i got up at 630 and looked around. i was mad to be awake at 630 in the morning and then i realized i was FREEZING cold. i didn't think i was going to be mad but i was mad because it was cold. so i got ready for the day and dad drove me to cedarburg. while sitting outside of starbuck's enjoying the morning i bought 3 cd's on itunes. the first was josh's cd. i'd been waiting to get it for the longest time, since i knew he was making one and then when i heard it had finally come out on itunes..that was it. :) the second cd i bought was bethany dillon: the beautiful sessions. it's an older one from her but it's bethany dillon so of course i'm going to buy it. ;)
the third cd was another bethany dillon. it was her newest one that came out in april. it's her music but the acoustic version.

then after that i ended up working from 930 to 5. well that's when i was signed in. anyway after that i came home and babysat zo.

that was my day. now i'm waiting up for omi and grandpadu because they're staying the night. dad just got the call and they should be here relatively soon. :)

starting school tomorrow at LW as a senior.

come what may...

teia

today the boys decided to play a game. so they got out this board game called bible speed and set it all up. the whole family was playing with them. :) what great imaginations. so they were playing the game and picking up the cards and "asking questions" which happened to be picking up a card and saying something about Jesus, God or heaven or something. i finally caught some of it.
here's some of the things ethan said:

"selah's (her card) says, 'you never go at earth, you have to go to heaven says God...from the wrong things you do...now it's uncle josh's turn. 'when you do this...' now it's daddy's turn."

a little later he said these ones:

"don't be so really sad for Jesus is in heaven, for He has the power and the sun...now it's daddy's turn. now it's uncle josh's turn. God is from heaven for you and you and you and you and you and you. now it's daddy's turn. now it's my turn aidan."

"He's got the power of mine. your sins have to go to heaven. God is from heaven for you and you and you. don't call n4 and 9."

i'm not sure about the "don't call n4 and 9" but i'm sure it has something to do with power rangers or something because they ended up turning the game into a power rangers thing after i caught these things.

ethan's got it. he's 5 and he's got it.

have faith like a child....

"ain't that the truth."

come what may...
teia

SUMMER RECAP....

it's the last tuesday of the summer. i have today and tomorrow left of summer break. :)

this summer has been pretty boring. sure, there were those days that i did nothing -which happened to be majority of the summer. then there were those special days that i did "special" things. i guess the first day was when we went to Omi and GrandpaDu's for the 50th wedding anniversary service. that was a fun day where we were able to see the ENTIRE family. entire meaning all 10 kids, all in-laws, and ALL the cousins.
after that we had Best of Broadway at the end of june. We had a great time and it was a good experience for the 2nd year in a row.

in july we had the fishing trip and our "night games" night with kristin and josh and minte.
it was the second time that we played night games, i know that tidbit of information is not too exciting but it was fun and i'm glad that we were able to do it again. the second time we even made up a game and basically got no sleep.

of course there was the Robbie Seay concert. i was just telling mom about the concert this past weekend and i remembered all the little stories that had made me laugh so hard that night. the guys were SO incredibly nice and i'm so grateful that they were able to come.

at out and out (where i work) we had a day where 12 of us went to six flags. we saved all of our tip money from the past year and went and had a great day...where we all got wet because it rained.

then 2 weeks later i was able to go to six flags with josh, kristin, michael, isabel, kellen, minte and me. we had such a blast.
that was about my summer. :)
this picture is from about 2 minutes ago. this is us doing what we do best. me holding a sleeping zoe and writing something....
come what may...
teia

these are some pictures from this summer of me. :) i love the first one of me and zoe. it's so cute.

days are winding.
winds are changing.
days are getting shorter.
winds are getting colder.
all clues for the school year that is starting in a week.
i was able to go to ethan's t-ball game and enjoy the "fall" weather and being outside.

these past couple of days i've had this "craving" to write. i don't know what to write about or how to start. all i know is that i have this itch that keeps begging me to write something. maybe i'll write something to kristin or just doodle.
i have a feeling that some of this goes with the fact that i haven't been talking to people as much as i used to.
last summer all i did was talk..i can't think of a day where i just sat around by myself which is really different from this summer. now it's the exact opposite.

things change. people change.

i'm going to try to relieve this "itch" for writing.
have a wonderful day...

come what may....
teia

its very late wednesday night. actually it's basically thursday which means that school starts in a week now. of course, we're all getting the question: are you getting excited to go back to school? and the answer most of the time seems to be no. i say no to people but then after i've always gone back on my answer in my head and re-evaluated. i try to figure out why i'm not excited. i think it's because in my head last year went by so fast for me that this year doesn't seem like it should be my last year. i mean i'm going to be a senior in a week. i guess i am now but i'll be in classes and everything. ;) i guess that doesn't change much but in a way it changes everything. oh well. basically i dont know if i'm excited to go back or not. i feel like i've missed out on way too much this summer to say i had a summer and now i'm going back to the way things were....again.

this summer was so different from last that it's crazy. i wish i could've done so much more and motivated myself to do more. but of course, i got into that funk and couldn't get out till a couple of weeks ago. now i'm back..

also, i'm pretty excited about school shopping because i feel like i need some new clothes. some cute ones. some dresses. haha i dont know really i just like shopping.
it's really grown on me.

time for me to read and relax before i get into the school ways again.

On Sunday night MInte and I started watching Moulin Rouge. She fell asleep and once I realized that it was 430 in the morning i decided it was time to stop the movie and go to sleep. Last night I finished the end of the movie. i've seen it once before and I love it. the story is amazing and shows love so perfectly. I can't really explain it. This is probably my favorite part of the whole movie.
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TOULOUSE: The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return!

[SATINE looks up, her back to CHRISTIAN. CHRISTIAN pauses. The AUDIENCE murmurs. WARNER looks at CHRISTIAN, but he doesn’t turn around. SATINE comes to a realisation. Slowly, she turns around.]

SATINE:

Never knew I could feel like this. . .

[With great pain, CHRISTIAN slowly starts to walk forward again out of the theatre. As SATINE sings, her voice grows stronger.]

SATINE:

. . .It’s like I’ve never seen the sky before.

Want to vanish. . .

[CHRISTIAN pauses, in inner turmoil.]

SATINE:

. . . inside your kiss,

Everyday I’m loving you more and more.

[SATINE walks forward across the stage, as CHRISTIAN slowly turns around.]

SATINE:

Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing,

Come back to me and forgive everything.

[SATINE gasps for breath, but recovers.]

[SATInE cues the orchestra to accompany SATINE.]

SATINE:

Seasons may change, winter to spring. . .

The DUKE is seething with rage.]

SATINE: I love you,

Till the end of time.

[A pause.]

CHRISTIAN:

Come what may. . .

the past week has been pretty crazy and now it's finally settling down.
last monday i was able to help out with germanfest some more. then on tuesday and wednesday i helped erin take some senior pictures and worked. we had a pretty fun time going to milwaukee and doing some on-site shooting downtown. then josh slept over on wednesday night because we were going to leave for six flags right in the morning. we had an awesome time at six flags. we were able to go on a lot of rides and just really enjoyed everyone's company. :)
minte, michael, isabel, josh, kellen, kristin and i all went. we made new jokes and laughed the whole day. later that night i was able to go home with kristin. we were so tired on thursday night. friday we woke up and had our whole day planned out. we went to water her babysitting family's plants, and ran a ton of errands. then we went shopping at the mall.
later we called hunter and went to see the dark knight with him. it was really fun and an amazing movie. hunter and i ended up talking for over an hour while kristin was on the phone. it was really fun we talked about school and what i want to do. after hunter left we talked to dan on the phone until 4 in the morning and then got up so we could get back home.
of course, traffic was horrific. going from chicago to west bend it took us about 3 and a half hours! it was crazy.

now i'm back home and it's kinda nice. i was able to actually do laundry and clean my room on monday. :) i was pretty happy about that.

it's august...ew. not too excited about that. oh well.

sun and the germans.

those couple of words explains my last few days. on wednesday i was able to help with the freshman orientation and then i went to work. the next day deirdre, isabel and i went to summerfest grounds to help with germanfest setup. it was a pretty good time. we stapled tablecloths onto tables for hours and then we sat in the hot hot sun. and of course there were many germans there. :) hans hans hans. it was a very popular name around the grounds. and once we got back to deirdre's we were so tired we just sat around for the rest of the night. we did the same thing yesterday at the grounds too. the guys were a little more cooperative and we were able to finish up the tables and then drive around on the golf cart waiting for the fest to open. it was a fun time with some pretty awesome people.
right now zoe and i are laying here in my bed even though it's a beautiful day outside. she's taking a nap. i figure that if i just lay here and cooperate....she might sleep a little while. :D

anyways, it was nice to get out of the house for a few days and be able to help some others out and hang out with some people my age and younger. :) and of course the tan is definitely a plus out of the whole situation.
now im just praying for kristin and her job, move and apartment situation. im praying that josh might come around so that we might have one time with isabel, michael, him and i this summer. just one last time.

oh well. dreams don't always come true.

maybe ill rest some more and read more of New Moon.
then monday is off to more germanfest work.

semper ubi sub ubi.
always wear underwear.

im out.

teia

today has been a pretty relaxing day like all summer days. :)

i talked to a bunch of people from school today online. it was really nice to kinda be able to catch up with some of them. tomorrow i have the chance to help out with freshman orientation. it will be a different experience and ill get to see a couple of people from school...and ill be in school for like 3 hours tomorrow! oh no. that means it's getting closer!

i was reminded by people today that there is less than a month of summer vacation left. it's so depressing in a way. there doesnt seem to be much of a summer to look back at. hopefully the next couple of weeks will be a blast.

kristin is going to OH this coming weekend to look at a potential teaching job for her. it's become a really hard choice for her to make in this time. she doesnt know if she wants to pick being close to friends and familiarity or if she should take the new job and be a part of that new expierence.

oh well. i guess thats her thing. :)
im looking forward to the next couple of days and the coming weeks.

change change change.
i dont think ill ever be used to it. but maybe one day it wont be so hard.

time to do something else.

zoe is 4 months old today! yay baby girl

these past two days have been good and bad just like any other days. we all have our ups and downs. secrets and long talks on the phone, excitement for one person and it seeming like the end of the world for the other. i know that it probably doesn't make sense but i think my head has been through a lot the past day.

today i found a website called This I Believe. it got me to thinking about what I believe...again. So i wrote thoughts down. it's a real rough copy but here's what I have.

This I Believe
'He looked at his three oldest children, me included, and said , ”What do you believe?”. It was moments after we found out about our youngest sister and her Trisomy 18 which could take her at any moment. What do I believe? It’s a question that everyone struggles with whether or not they having a dying sister. Three weeks later we were asking ourselves the same question when we found out that our baby brother was diagnosed with Trisomy 21 or Down’s Syndrome. How was I supposed to live with two babies that were not as healthy as all the others? How was I going to live through this?
As I wept about these little gifts of life that God gave our family, I struggled. He cannot do this to me, I thought. Then I remembered one of the songs we sang in choir, “Rejoice in heaven all ye who dwell there in. Rejoice on earth ye saints below, For Christ is coming, is coming soon. For Christ is coming soon.” When I remembered those words for those weeks I became comforted. I knew He was with me and that He was going to lead me through this time. I gave it all to God and knew that He was going to take care of me and the whole family. When people hear about my brother and sister, they feel sad and sympathize for me. I don’t want them to be sad because I know what I believe. I know what He can do.
This I believe.
I believe that God will stay with you through any trial that you go through. He’s there right next to you. He’s listening to your prayers and He answers them in His time with His will. He can do anything like make the flowers bloom and the birds sing. He can make a baby who is not supposed to be living live for 122 days and more.'

soooooo. that's about it for today. i might write more later.

teia

it's a beautiful monday afternoon. i got home from work at 5 and decided to come outside and sit right in the middle of the yard so that im under some shade and sun just at the same time. :) of course, once i get my chair set up in the middle of the yard i hear footsteps and a door closing and ethan dragged a chair up right next to mine. it's cute but it's just the right time right now to just want to be in peace and quiet. usually right when you find your "perfect" spot chaos comes up and just doesn't want you to be in that moment. oh well, sometimes we need that perfect moment only for a second just to get us back to where we need to be.

i took some pictures of me sitting right in the middle of the yard. :)
here they are.


the one at the top of the post is from today too. it just is of the "sky". well what the sky looks like right now when i look up ...it's filled with leaves and branches and specs of blue.

happy july 14th!

tomorrow's ethan's birthday!

teia

ok. so RSB are definitely the most amazing guys i've met in a really long time.
last night, yesterday was all amazing.
we got there and i walked around with zoe a lot. then robbie comes up to me and was like "hi how are you doing? who is this?" so we talked. i was pretty happy after that.
i talked to so many people. i feel kinda bad though because i was so floaty the whole night. i think there was too much going on in my head for me to think and process. therefore, i was so insanely floaty. wow. anyways.
then we actually got to meet robbie after the sound check. it was pretty amazing. he is a cool guy. we talked about zoe and her stuff. we talked about the family. then we met ryan he was the bassist. we didn't talk to him that much. but he seemed pretty neat, cool too. :)
isabel and i became the "food-getters" we got some jumbalaya ready for the guys to which taylor responded with the "jumbalaya dance". yes. there was a dance and "jumba, jumba, jumba-laya!" we cracked up. so that's basically how we met taylor. sitting next to taylor while we were eating was TANK. he was the drummer. i guess minte decided to ask TANK what his real name was and he responded with i dont have one. i keep writing TANK with capital letters because that's how he signed my awesome green shirt that mipps bought me. then there was tyler and he was the keyboardist. i think that's a word. keyboardist? keyboarder? whatever, he was on the keyboard. he was quiet but willing to try the strawberry rhubarb pie dad made. :P i'm not sure if he really liked it or not though..that's ok though. after the concert when i was going to get a picture with him i was stepping over a guitar case and my foot hit it. when i tried to stop it from falling he was like "it's ok..no worries, no worries." that was pretty cool i guess. i dont know. that's my tyler story. :)

let's see robbie stories. he was intrigued to hear about aunt tari and charis's time when they saw richard simmons. they were ecstatic to tell him. then he tried telling a story back about his friend david crowder and looked at them like 'you know....david crowder.' ...yeah. they were clueless. thankfully i was there and was like oh he's awesome. we listen to his music all the time. his hair is CRAZY! then he was able to finish the story because i understood about DC's hair. :) he loves the aunts. he thinks our family is crazy. he went up to dad and told him that he loved the family but we were crazy! he especially loved omi. he talked bout dad and jen and zoe on the green bay radio this morning and of course, martina called in. and he met another crazy family member. he mentioned omi on the radio.
i gave robbie the mug that erin and i made on the last day of school. one side said hope, coffee and melody and the other said oh baby, it's a new day. on the inside of the cup it had psalm 40:3..

i think robbie and the whole band thought this little concert was neat and cool. but what they might not understand is that this is becoming the talk of our lives. it's all we can think about. it's all we are going to think about for the next days, months and well we'll still talk about it years from now. they were such a blessing to our family. they helped us have a happy, fun, family, worshipful day. we all had a blast. i wish i could write exactly how i feel but i dont think i can. it's not possible just because there are no words for it.

thank you robbie.
thank you taylor.
thank you ryan.
thank you tyler.
thank you TANK.

you guys are amazing. thank you.

pictures from the concert...

i spend too much time on the computer.
most of it is looking at other people's blogs or looking at other pictures or my own pictures.
i'm such a dork. but i love it.

last week our best of broadway performances went REALLY well. the friday performance had some glitches because the sound board all of a sudden cut out the music during the middle of sap's song. he did a great job and finished but we had no music. during the first song the cd player wouldn't read the cd at all so we ended up ad-libbing for about 5 minutes. then we switched cd players after sap's song. and that one was still having problems so then we switched to dad's computer and it worked fine for the rest of the night. the audience was pretty mad. and so were some of the cast members so we messed up a couple of songs. our second performance went really well we didn't have any sound problems because we just played all the music off my computer because i already had all the songs in order. the last performance on sunday was most definitely our best one because we were all excited for it to be over i think. we all had a really fun time and of course there were those who annoyed us like none other but we still had a good time.
we had a cast party after the performance and had food and cleaned up at the academy.

it was really nice because omi and grandpadu were able to make it to our saturday performance and they enjoyed it.
afterwards omi and i were talking and then she looked at me and said," that man has something stuck to his butt." i was shocked and didn't know what she was talking about but when i looked over i found out that she was right. there was an older man standing near us and there was a white piece of paper stuck to his butt that said go wildcats with a megaphone. the sheet was one of the ones that we had used to reserve seats. so i told josh to come over and omi told him," go tell that man there's something stuck to his butt. im a lady and that would be kind of awkward if i told him." he saw the piece of paper and thought it was hilarious. he took a picture of it and said "story of my life!" omi and i both thought it was pretty funny.

tuesday morning kristin came up and we hung out all day. we went shopping at shoe carnival, maurices and bath and body works. then we went and got lunch and ate it the park by michael's house. after we dropped michael off, us girls drove to port washington to the the pier because we were going to meet josh there. we sat out for a little while and then walked back. i got some really amazing pictures with the water and us and reflections. we sat in kristin's car for a bit just talking and having fun. then when josh stood up to get out of the car isabel slammed a door and yelled FINE really loud. then she opened a door and slammed it again yelling again. she kept doing it while josh was walking back to his car. then kristin and i joined in. isabel quick ran out and got into josh's car. when kristin and i were pulling out we realized that we were making a scene and people really thought soemthing was wrong especially because isabel ran out of our car and into the other one. so we laughed about that one for awhile. when we got home we went out on the lake and the boys went fishing. the girls tried on the new clothes and then we ate dinner.

some of us were standing in the kitchen getting more food and drink and dad wanted to open the DR. WOW. so he started opening it and it exploded ALL over. it wasn't a little bit either. it was like a quarter of the bottle spraying ALL over the kitchen. kristin was standing there trying to hold her laughter in while we were all in shock or laughing.

after we cleaned everything up we headed outside for night games.we played capture the flag and then we decided to make up a game. we ended up playing outside until 2 in the morning. it was so beautiful out and there were millions of stars out.

the next morning we all got up at 5 to go fishing in door county. we were on the boat for just about 4 hours and had a really fun time. although we were dead tired we still enjoyed just being able to sit out there and relax. it started storming while we were out on the boat and we ended up catching 2 fish but only one to eat. captain paul thought it was probably 14lbs! after fishing we had some burgers on the way out and then kristin left and i worked.

today i went to children's with dad and jen and zoe for the heart meeting. i sat in the waiting room where the disney channel kept playing zach and cody episodes all afternoon.

other than that today was a pretty relaxing day.

i love it when kristin comes to town. we always cram as much as we can into the few hours we're together and it works...we all end up really tired after she leaves though. :)

tomorrow's the fourth and i get to see tracey's twins! i'm really excited we're also going to the cedarburg parade and then just going to hang out.

robbie seay's coming up! yay i'm really excited.

time for me to get some rest.

night.
teia

this week has been pretty awesome.
the robbie seay stuff is falling into place.
we're all getting ready for the concert. this weekend is best of broadway.
it's going to be really fun. i'm kind of nervous but not really. the others who are workin on "your fault" with me are pretty cool. and we practiced it with brittany after practice...and it was one of our best times. so hopefully tomorrow will be pretty solid. and the rest of the weekend.

so here are some cool things i've been shown over the past few days:
1) the zoe means life website. it's really neat- "the 1930's called....they want their word back."- and just shows how talented some people are.
www.zoemeanslifefor.us
2) youtube is pretty awesome. i mean videos on whatever, wherever, with whoever.
well, someone that was on a youtube video is someone that i admire VERY much. he's my best friend, my brother in Christ, my uncle: josh pope. he sang the star spangled banner, at the milwaukee 200 at the milwaukee mile . i'm really proud of him. he uses his talents and it's awesome when he does.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=tTCJUdrEFvM

so that is my ramblings for today. i'm ready to watch some gilmore girls and then head to sleep. i have a big day tomorrow. along with many others....
yay. excitement! :)

love
teia

i guess this past week has been somewhat exciting. but not really. not much has happened.

i mean we had isabel's birthday party. there was a bonfire and running around, breaking things, you know...the usual. then saturday isabel went off with her friends and i helped around the house and saw uncle dreas, jill and adler. adler was a little shy at first but then got used to all the kids running around and joined right in. a couple of times i looked over and thought it was aidan. he did the same run and jump onto the couch thing that aidan does all the time. after i saw them i worked. sunday we all went to church. minte was included. it was -i think- the first time she was able to come to isabel's birthday party. so her and isabel made it into a "birthday weekend" that was pretty exciting. plus we all love having minte here. :) we came home after church and cleaned up..watched a movie and jill and uncle dreas came back over with adler again. it ended up raining off and on all day long so there wasn't much to do. i worked again on sunday. then monday came and there was lots of sitting around and gilmore girl watching.
tech week for the best of broadway also started on monday. we went to practice and had a pretty nice time. erin and i talk talk talk. isabel and i talk talk talk...
and pretty much drive jen nuts.
sorry jen.
then joe and i talk talk talk. he's pretty funny and we get along which is a good thing considering i'm either dancing with him in each song or standing next to him. he's a cool kid and the oldest of a bunch of crazy siblings too. his mom is going to have a baby girl in just a few weeks now.
today michael showed up and walked in and said hi. and we're like michael...why are you here? haha. it was funny because michael knows that he can do that and we really don't mind all that much. they went on the canoe and i stayed with jen and the boys and zoe. then there was more best of broadway practice. it's coming together really nicely! i'm pretty excited for the shows. im a little worried about your fault in some places because i know how i'm supposed to act and look but it's getting there that's a little difficult.

you should try to come! it's going to be a blast.
it's friday night at 7pm, saturday night at 7 pm and sunday at 2pm.
it's in grafton at NSAA. there's pre-sale tickets or at the door.
or go to the website and the phone number is on there and some other "info"

im going to go show dad some pictures and then read or find something to do.


love .
teia

so tonight i got home from work...and was really tired. but i knew that i had to talk to kristin. it wasn't like an obligation or anything it was just like kristin and i hadn't talked since 3 am sunday morning....and i remember that conversation but i was a little tired. and she....well she was out of it. i missed her. also, her and i had been playing phone tag since like 830 last night. we both called each other at least twice.she called and left a message and then i ended up doing the same. back and forth.
we finally talked. it was for a couple of minutes but it was a good talk. i love talking to her. i loved hearing briefly about her weekend with josh and all the fun they had.
after we talked i went online and was just going to read up on a few things...i started pressing the stumbleupon button..over and over to see what i could find.
this one site came up that said, "what is love?" as the headline. i was thinking oh great. what is this? it ended up being this little blog entry thing..giving examples of situations and then saying nope...that's not love , that's infatuation. and on and on.
then it got to the couple of love situations. and i thought about the past weekend. and all the things that happened. i mean we had omi and grandpadu's 50th wedding anniversary.
they show love in everything. that's love.
i thought about dad and jen taking care of us...
that's love.
jen taking care of zoe the way that she does.
that's love.
kristin and josh...
that's love

-- i know that they might get mad at me..but..it's true. and it's cute.

i talked to kristin on the phone tonight. and i cried. she doesn't know it...but i did. i heard her talking about her weekend and it made me so happy. i can't imagine being in her position.
i can't really explain it better than that.

i was shown what love is and what it can be these past few days and months... and it takes my breath away.

it's an amazing thing and i don't think that there's a better word for it.

love
teia